feminYIN channel episode 37
It's time! It's that time of the month! It's time for the shadow of the month!
Now, you may wonder what is that?! And also, Cristina , why are you writing in English and not Romanian?
Well, I will answer both question, one has a short answer: I have been asked to launch and promote all of my events in English by women who met me in various spiritual retreats and events here in Bucharest, Romania and wanted to participate in my events about conscious femininity, presence and personal magnetism, but could not do that due to the fact that all events until recent time were in my native language: Romanian. So that is about to change this year, along with some other things that will be revealed on the way , as we move towards our next events and meetings together (online and in person). The other has a longer answer, that I'll try to keep it as short as possible. But it will not be easy for me to do so, and this shadow in particular was a tough one for me, struggled with it for years to acknowledge, to accept its gifts, to accept it, to integrate it and finally embrace all the gifts that brought me . Quite a challenge in fact! Here I go:
As I started to speak more about Art of Feminine Presence in my circles back in 2014 I was extremely enthusiastic and openly sharing my passion for this work. I did my first photo session and recorded my first video promoting my 3 day long week-end intensive and myself. As I became more vocal, as I decided to become more visible to be able to reach more women that can benefit from this work and all practices , something happened. Something that had a huge impact on me and made me pull back a lot in promoting myself, and being bold, courageous and on fire about sharing this work.
I would not be talking about it, but it seems somehow, somebody always reminds me in a way or another about that incident.
And it all came back: my biggest shadow! The one that has been the hardest to own. The one that I could not fully , completely get to understand, accept and integrate: the shadow of plagiarism.
I did not talk publicly about that incident, It hurt. All that happened back then pissed me off, I was angry for a long time and really not willing to look into it and this part of myself. Resisting it. Total resistance
In the light of that event I had to look deeply within myself and see what part of me generated this incident into reality. What part of me created all this ? What part of me is responsible, but does not want to take full responsibility ?What part of myself did not want to be accountable at all?
I could not fully comprehend this shadow then, back when I started this work, and what happened really hurt me, made me furious, made me question myself so many times and I made me stay on the side of the court watching others play, instead of being in the field and playing the game myself. Not anymore! I am sharing a little bit of my story in the last episode of femininYIN channel:
As you can see it is unpleasant for me to speak about that incident, not easy for me to open up about it, but I wanted to talk about it because it may make a difference in somebody else's life.
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about Cristina Simincianu
With an interest in expanding human potential and passion for self development trainings Cristina Simincianu got certified in The Art of Feminine Presence method by Rachael Jayne Groover back in 2014 and facilitates seminars dedicated to women growth and empowering women to succeed in their personal and professional life.
Eu sint Cristina